Inside Out

Do you ever feel like God is turning you inside out? I guess I'm referring to that heart-wrenching, hope-giving, awe-inspiring kind of growth spurt that He sometimes brings us through. That's where I believe I am today. These last few weeks have been formative to who I am as a follower of Jesus. God is opening my heart to Himself in ways that in 20 years of walking with Him, I never knew were possible. He is opening my heart to others consequently, which is amazing, as within myself, I know I have no capacity to truly love people.

Right now, the Lord is showing me just how much life is about being in Him, apart from any other identity. He is showing me more of the vastness of His love and grace, and teaching me how to appropriate that and extend it toward others. My heart is more alive than ever before. Even as I recognize deep sins and heart issues that I was not previously conscious of, I am experiencing His love and acceptance in a deeper fuller way. His Word is sweeter and my prayers are more intimate. I am releasing people-pleasing and my heart's legalism with more victory than I have ever experienced. It's incredible. And I want others to experience this too.

This post is not intended to bring any great theological insight, or expound on any particular Biblical passages. I just was compelled to share from my heart a bit of the transformation that I am seeing taking place. I trust that through this, God will use me to bear fruit, and that His work will be evident to all. I am looking forward to seeing where this personal spiritual awakening will lead, as truly my soul feels like it's being turned- inside out.